I'm Done.

I'm on with a new chapter in my life now. I want to be more heard and not just the friend on the sidelines. I want to be someone that truly makes a difference in other people's lives. I want to be the person that people can come to and just vent and ask for advice from. I want to be the one that has true friends that are completely happy with just watching Boy Meets World or are up for an adventure. 

I had friends like these and as time has moved on some have moved away, some have changed, and some have just almost completely shut me out from their true selves. 

All of these things used to be things I had in friends and I noticed... lately the ones that I have made a difference in their life, the ones that wanted my advice and were very open with me, the ones that wanted to just chill. Weren't the people that I considered my close friends but they are true friends. 

Today, I started to notice my feeling of truly wanting to let go and then I heard more things about others who have talked about me behind my back which I never didn't suspect but it was proof.  I'm tired of the fake friendships and I'm ready for real ones. 

After going to Hanford, I was around true people. People that didn't cause drama. People that I could trust and know would care. People that I know I could play glow in the dark frisbee at 2am :). People that want to just sit on a hammock or sit in a pitch black room and talk about issues. 

So thank you God for this challenge. In the past I used to hate change but in a way now I have become to really be grateful for the challenges you make me face. They make me stronger each day and I know in my heart the pain will end and there will always be a new even more beautiful beginning.