What is truth? Is it the words the creep out of one's lips? Is it the look off innocence in one's dreary prolonged expression? Truth has a deeper meaning and it seems as if I have come to known people of nature that lack it. The truth of an undenying friendship. Or the truth of personalities and those who tend to...mend reality's footage. And those who laugh and fake their way through their life thinking selfishly of only themselves.
My birthday is coming up...and I don't think anyone cares. Did you know that hurts a lot? I think the only people that will actually even care to do something for me is my family and my boyfriend. That shows you were the true ones are now. And yeah, it's a birthday. There are plenty more of them. But when I think back on my 18th birthday I want to be able to smile and know it was a really nice one. Last year was a dud and the year before that was somewhat okay but not much better. And again it was really my family that put in the most effort. Honestly...I think my 15th Birthday was one of the best. My best friend (at the time) and I had close birthdays and had a joint party. We had the best of times back then...
I've been trying not to show others how I truly feel lately and maybe that makes me untruthful but people expect the smiling nodding face from me. They expect me to make them laugh and vent to me and so I can tell them it'll all be alright. Lately, I've been the one that's wanted to hear someone that would make me laugh and hear me out and tell me I'm alright. Thank you lord for Rex. Maybe I shouldn't be depending on him but lately besides family, he's all I've got.
Well that's my vent for the night. I just have been holding a lot in lately. Mostly stress and I miss the feeling of knowing that I have true friends. Maybe I do have some and I don't even realize it but there are some that you know truly don't want to be that close to you and that's what hurts the most.
Well that's all I have to say anyways...
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
A Cat is on My Lap
This is true.
So I'm thinking I'm going to rebel from Xanga.
Yes, I still use my xanga on occasion.
It's because nobody else uses it.
I think only one person I know checks it when I update it.
It's more of a place for true venting :].
Muahahaha
Okay so back to the cat on my lap.
He's pretty pimp.
My cat's name is Boots.
See that's already a fly name as it is right?
Well anyways...A Cat is on My Lap really shouldn't be the subject. But I don't care what you think because I like confusing you thinking that I'll talk about my cat sitting my lap while typing up this obnoxious blog for you lol anyways.
The true subject to this is...
Ah should I really say?
Okay you got me.
I got my prom dress.
It's black.
I almost got this amazing green one but I'm thinking simple and classic as my last year.
yeeha! Do we even have a theme this year? lol
Oh well who cares.
I never really cared about the whole "prom and formal themes or colors"
I would just be like hey! nice dress! taking you home! woot! theme SCHMEME!
I'm exhausted if you couldn't tell.
I've been walking around the mall for three hours. Men may tease a woman when she is saying I went shopping and now I am exhausted.
There are many reasons why shopping is exhausting:
1. No matter what kind of shoes you wear
2. You have to deal with obnoxious people that take all of the time they can to meander around the mall as you busily scavenge for the exit or another store you're trying to reach.
3. Okay so you get to the store and you're on a mission for something amazing but with great deals. So you go to the back of the store but there aren't any deals and if they due they are hideous so then you have quickly pace yourself around the store. And you find your item in the very corner of the room.
4. So you're pumped to go. You're got your amazing item. Maybe not as cheap as you'd like it but it's there and then you are stuck in that long never ending line. And you feel so impatient because you are getting tired, you're thristy, and maybe even a little hungry and those cinnamon roles in the next store isn't helping you out much better lol
5. So finally you get out of there, decide to pass on the overpriced cinnamon role and go to leave the mall. But you are stuck! You cannot find your car. So you desperately search for that gold saturn that not nearly a million people in Fresno have already.
6. Finally you find your car BUT the person right infront of you is too chicken to just go already.
7. Finally they do leave and you have escaped the parking lot. And then drive for 10 minutes almost falling asleep to your precious home.
The End.
So I'm thinking I'm going to rebel from Xanga.
Yes, I still use my xanga on occasion.
It's because nobody else uses it.
I think only one person I know checks it when I update it.
It's more of a place for true venting :].
Muahahaha
Okay so back to the cat on my lap.
He's pretty pimp.
My cat's name is Boots.
See that's already a fly name as it is right?
Well anyways...A Cat is on My Lap really shouldn't be the subject. But I don't care what you think because I like confusing you thinking that I'll talk about my cat sitting my lap while typing up this obnoxious blog for you lol anyways.
The true subject to this is...
Ah should I really say?
Okay you got me.
I got my prom dress.
It's black.
I almost got this amazing green one but I'm thinking simple and classic as my last year.
yeeha! Do we even have a theme this year? lol
Oh well who cares.
I never really cared about the whole "prom and formal themes or colors"
I would just be like hey! nice dress! taking you home! woot! theme SCHMEME!
I'm exhausted if you couldn't tell.
I've been walking around the mall for three hours. Men may tease a woman when she is saying I went shopping and now I am exhausted.
There are many reasons why shopping is exhausting:
1. No matter what kind of shoes you wear
2. You have to deal with obnoxious people that take all of the time they can to meander around the mall as you busily scavenge for the exit or another store you're trying to reach.
3. Okay so you get to the store and you're on a mission for something amazing but with great deals. So you go to the back of the store but there aren't any deals and if they due they are hideous so then you have quickly pace yourself around the store. And you find your item in the very corner of the room.
4. So you're pumped to go. You're got your amazing item. Maybe not as cheap as you'd like it but it's there and then you are stuck in that long never ending line. And you feel so impatient because you are getting tired, you're thristy, and maybe even a little hungry and those cinnamon roles in the next store isn't helping you out much better lol
5. So finally you get out of there, decide to pass on the overpriced cinnamon role and go to leave the mall. But you are stuck! You cannot find your car. So you desperately search for that gold saturn that not nearly a million people in Fresno have already.
6. Finally you find your car BUT the person right infront of you is too chicken to just go already.
7. Finally they do leave and you have escaped the parking lot. And then drive for 10 minutes almost falling asleep to your precious home.
The End.
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